On answering the question, "So, how have you been?"

This life is a beautifully impossible one, isn't it? It is so bold, yet so fragile - how love, compassion, & strength can exist simultaneous with pain, sadness, & indignity.

I was planning a post to share some really exciting news with you all, but unfortunately life had other plans.

Eric & I were pregnant, but we lost the baby at 9 weeks.

I don't really know what to say; I've written & rewritten this post over & over again. First of all, E & I are good. We are so, so good. My gratitude for my amazing husband cannot be put into words. We have handled this with complete honesty between us, & it has given the experience a backbone of strength. This is cheesy, I know, but I really didn't think that we could be any closer or any more in love - but we are. I don't know what I've done to deserve this love in my life, but I must've been a saint in a past life ('cuz I sure as hell ain't one now!). I think getting through a situation like this shows you what you're made of, as a couple. Man, oh man, I am one lucky girl.

We are amazed at the women in our lives who have come forward & shared their own stories with us. I am sorry that I didn't know about your loss before & that it takes things like this for women to be able to share. Ultimately, I guess that's why I'm writing this at all - we deserve to deal with these things in our own ways, to avoid any form of shame, & to connect with the people around us in shared human experience.

I feel no shame or personal failure for this loss. The body knows what it's doing, it knows how to handle these complex processes beyond what my mind can even grasp. Fortunately, the doctor does not foresee any additional problems for us in the future, & when we decide to try again, it will be with much more confidence than before.

We are so thankful for everyone who has supported us during this time. You have been warm hugs, crying shoulders, welcome distractions, & big belly laughs. Sharing in your experiences has given us exactly what we needed - perspective. We have so much time to enjoy before we have children & when that eventually happens for us too. I'll be honest, we're taking some time to get back to the life we love before we embark on this journey again.
We're in no rush ;).

Thank you all so much for being constant reminders of why we have so much gratitude for our beautiful lives. We count ourselves as the two luckiest people walking the earth, & this experience has only made us believe that more.

Take care, until next time.
xo Chlo & Eric.