Life is a wild one & sometimes I feel like I am just on her train with no stops in the near future.
I feel that there is a lot of miscommunication & heartache around me at the moment. I am concerned that I'm not doing the right things, saying the right words, or making the right decisions. For the past week, I have been pretty stressed, trying to decipher the expectations & needs of the people I care about. I struggle between backing away completely & forging forward to see these things through. But it feels the more I am involved, the more I know, the more I try to help, I am not in the right place. There is an imbalance.
I want to meet each new challenge with grace, & the only way is with empathy & a resolute calm. I also want to make sure that I learn something, that I can approach the next challenge having taken something away from the last.
So I have to accept the beauty of our human life in all of the messiness.
Even these harder growing pains are just another part of living a full life. Getting to watch loved ones discover themselves, who they really want to be & how to get there, is a lucky lucky thing. It's not easy, it's not without it's stress & sometimes heartbreaks, but next year, this will all have passed & we will all be onto the next bigger thing.
That's how I feel about getting older - every year gets bigger & bigger. As more dreams are accomplished, as the picture changes & new goals take shape, the boundaries that define my life expand exponentially. It makes me so excited & sometimes infuriatingly impatient.
Remembering to sit in the present moment & appreciate whatever the world has in store is important.
Just some thoughts on this Tuesday afternoon as I try to walk in the light.
"When another person makes you suffer, it is because he suffers deeply within himself, & his suffering is spilling over. He does not need punishment; he needs help." - Thich Naht Hanh.
Be kind out there.
xx Chlo.
